walls
It's been a day…
I was already nervous because we started a new project in occupational therapy, and then i got assigned to a group with one of this weeks new group arrivals, which i had a strange feeling about, yet not had enough time to have a proper talk with. My feeling was correct, she is someone who likes to achieve things, preferably overachieve. «They will be glad they got our thing to place in the lobby.» was the sentence that broke me, and i took my first time-out. Made the error to take a rest on one of the benches in the hall, where she found me and asked in a condescending, high pitched tone what was wrong. Told her it was too much at that moment and i had to leave.
Awareness training was … well, if everyone is on a six to eight on a ten piece «being able to perform self-care» scale, why are we sitting in rehab? I was unable to write about my strengths and how others see me in a positive light, it felt like i had a wall running through me…