numb, not comfortable
Kirby's baseball practice was good, when the kids were busy with training instead of goofing around. It seems like everyone is ready for the holidays, or are they loopy because of the holidays that are within their reach?
Watched a comedy to fall asleep, and at one point realised, that i won't be there for Kirby at some point. That made me sad, and hate the people who told me, Kids are the manifested hope in the future of their parents. I won't be there to comfort him in his final moments … having kids is a greater existential horror than i imagined it to be.
The older Niece asked, if i had an older digital camera lying around. She explained, the photo vibe that people like these days like, is the aesthetic of older camera sensors, preferably CCD ones. Should have kept the Ricoh Digital GR IV. Found the C1 from Kodak which might help her—while researching that camera i found out, that the Charmera is still sold out, and private sellers ask up to 100 euros.
I was fed up with people, so when our trainee asked me, how i cope with my introvert tendencies at work, i told her that i'm using pain killers to shut out as much of my body's feedback as possible, to be able to bear all the human contact i'm forced to have.