exorcised
"I want to be an early riser." Kirby told me, after he'd woken up five minutes after i got up.
He had an exciting day; bouldering, meeting his cousin and spending the day with her, watching The Lego Batman Movie in the evening.
It must have been a week ago, that i stumbled upon my first steady girlfriend on social media. Over the week i looked through what she had posted, thinking about saying sorry for how i messed things up and ended our relationship. She went through a lot, and it seems she came out ok on the other end. Then i found a post where she used one of the worst pieces of music known to mankind, and decided that it's for the better, to remain a—hopefully—exorcised ghost.
It's not even December, and i've had it with christmas time. Advent calendars and presents and bullying people into saying what they'd like. Chopping down trees to throw into landfills at the end of the month, the monologues about love and caring and pretending that we'll try to be better/meet up with that person/etc.. It is exhausting. It is a time that changes something in me, not religious, just remembering being spoiled by everybody. And i hate it, and i hope Kirby will have other memories of the time.