exhaustion
Felt tired all day, and then couldn't fall asleep although my eyelids kept falling shut.
We said Goodbye to another member of the rehab group. We weren't close, still, she felt like an anchor point, calm and steady. She couldn't have been, otherwise she wouldn't have been in rehab, she had learned and integrated a lot to present herself so unconsciously.
Activation and movement were enjoyable. We played a game to get to know each other better, and learned that a member of the group met David Bowie!
Later in the day, people started to become obnoxious due to their pessimism. I'm already an old cranky person, and the complaining and distracting was … it felt like i leaked energy. Not everything in rehab is great, not everything can be solved by the crew and the group, we have to do the work, but we are all tired in our own way. It's an exhaustion that brought us together. And all we can do for one another, is pointing out possible ways to escape it, we can't pull the other out completely.
Got the Superman 2025 soundtrack, and the tears started flowing during the opening of the second track, Last Son1. The whole song feels like childhood. Like your parents, waking you up in the morning, and during the day you grow up to be an adult and you find a place in life. Haven't had that in a long time, being able to talk about associations with music.