tense
I'm still being whipped by depression and my place on the spectrum. My skin is so thin these days, that i have to sketch out phone calls. On my follow up meeting with my physician, i replied with involuntary crying to the question about how i feel. He recommended me a few psychiatrists, which all have a waiting list of undefined length, or charge an arm and a leg. Fingers crossed, at least one list is short enough so someone might be able to take a look at me in the current quarter, and that we two can work together. I still have a few days of sick leave, and no idea how i will function in my work environment. I'm tired, no matter how long or well i slept, there is an almost constant headache pounding in various strengths in the back of my head, as well as a constant pain in my neck and shoulders. It's been a week since i took my last painkiller. Guess i have to wait it all out; the pain in my head is probably linked to my tense neck and shoulders, which in turn are surely caused because i tense up due to depression.
I built the beginner grade kit of the RX-78-2 from Gundam. Painted it's sield using markers—it looks shit; one person said, it looks like deliberate weathering—, and want to use it to test a few things like panel lining or getting rid of seam lines.
Kirby and i had a lovely walk to school one morning—during which i called a person an old fool for shouting at his dog to follow him instead of putting him on a leash. It's neat to see him have more endurance when it comes to walking or biking. For a while it was a frustrating chore to get him to walk for more than five minutes, and now when one of us proposes to take a tram or bus, he argues, that it is only a walk away.
During that walk, we talked about the religious kids in his class; it seems to me, that Kirby is on a crusade to pull people from their faith. I tried to tell him, that just because the Wife and i don't believe in gods, we don't want anybody else to; we just don't want people to get hurt due to believing into something others deem wrong. Kirby understands our point, yet is adamant in his view of eradicating a lot of problems by getting rid of religions. He has not understood, that even atheists are to a certain kind religious, and even if they are just some bullshit baristas, then the whole act of making a cup of coffee becomes a ritual; and when they talk about it, they hold a sermon; and to some degree, they're willing to hurt the tastebuds of others.
watched
Started to watch the german dub of Shin Ultraman (2022)1, which makes the movie seem like something made by a generative AI; the dialogues were translated a tad to literal, and seem rather stiff. Also, it doesn't help that the movie is a sprint through a few episodes of the original series, in a contemporary setting, and the viewer gets to know the protagonists only in their professional roles. Where Shin Godzilla2 seems like a meditation, Ultraman storms in, and drags you along. The dub also messes up the soundtrack a lot—which could also be a fault of the streaming service that provided me the opportunity. Still, it's one of my favourite movies.
Also sat down to watch Silent Running (1972)3 again after … 30 odd years. The movie should feel »contemporary«, still, it feels way too long. One can trash the movie based on it's premise already, and it stacks up a few unlogical things along the way, what bothered me most was, how Lowell was already mad person right at the beginning, and spending 89 minutes as witness to his further decline could have been told better. Still, it's one of the classics, and rightfully so, but only if you're of a certain generation. Guess i have to elaborate on that at another time…
Another classic i rewatched was the theatrical cut of The Abyss (1989)4; which still makes me ol' aquaphobiac shiver in my undies. Also, i noticed Ed Harris blue hand only changing in hue throughout the movie, and Michael Biehn looked like he suffered from high pressure nervous syndrome5 from the beginning, when he stood in the background of a video call, starting manically through the screen. I can appreciate the movie now, when i first watched it—when it was released on VHS6—, i was bummed out by the aliens being left out for the largest parts of the movie.
read
Reading the first issue of the new Wonder Man7 series, i thought that Mark Buckingham should draw a lot more superhero comics, to get a breath of fresh air and rather natural style in the hyper stylized setting that the genre is.
Knight City's first two issues were better than i anticipated.
Resident Alien—the comic on which the TV show is based on—ended this week with the One more for the road one-shot. It left me disappointed, due to having to leave the series, when theres a new box of stories is being brought in, but i understand that the insides of that box should remain in the imagination of the reader. Taking them out would mean, that the story would not only have to build the lives of the group of people, who's lives we witnessed since the comics beginning, but also a world, and that is not this series. It's intimate rather than a sweeping saga, which it kind of started in it's last story arc.
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Shin Ultraman // wikipedia.org↩
*Shin Godzilla // wikipedia.org↩
Silent Running // wikipedia.org↩
*High pressure nervous syndrome // wikipedia.org↩
Wonder Man // wikipedia.org↩